[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96281

Hi Ladies,
I hope everyone is safe & enjoying the weekend. I’m not sure what happened to our 80 degree weekend, but it went elsewhere. It’s been in the 50s for the most part. It rained most of the day yesterday. It started out cloudy this morning but the sun finally made it out this afternoon. It’s supposed to warm up the rest of the week to the 70s. I’ll believe it when I see it!! I put up some of my tropical pics today. It’s looking like a tropical paradise in here now. I could wallpaper the whole place, I have so many pics,(calendars).

Well, reality has really set in. I went & picked up Jewell’s ashes today. Of course, I fell apart when the girl came around the corner with the urn. I’m still doing the deep gut wrenching bawling. A friend of mine sent me a post about dealing with the loss of a loved one. Everything it said I’m experiencing. Still seeing her coming around the corner, talking to her, etc. And FB puts out a “memory”, which is a pic of Jewell most of the time. I miss her soooooooo much!!! I lost a big part of my soul when she died. she left some really big paw prints on my heart.

The shelter I found LULU in is closed for the holiday weekend, so I won’t get a visit with her till this week.
Well, I guess that’s all for now.
Thanks to all the veterans who gave their all for all of us.
dd

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96228

Hi Ladies,
I’m back. I went back & read some of the posts I overlooked. Adele, doesn’t your husband realize that cutting on the Wisteria, that it makes it GROW??!! Whenever you cut something back, it promotes growth. Stimulates, I should say. Besides, Wisteria is hard to kill from what I’ve heard. I’ve never had it but I knew people who did. It’s beautiful tho.
Did I tell ya what I think happened with the miscommunication? I think they called the wrong #. I called the vet to find out if they had Jewell yesterday. She said she’d check & call me back. Well, I waited & waited but no call came. I called back & the first think she said, “Didn’t you get my voicemail?” I said no call came thru,& no voicemail. So, we checked to make sure they had the right #. My # ends in numbers close together & I think they hit or reverse 2 #s. Meaning I don’t get the calls. That’s the only thing I can think of. You know how fast kids type on the phones & I’ll bet anything the last #s were wrong. The # they had was correct at both the vet & crematorium.
I’m so glad I was able to have Jewell with me that night she slept with me. I held her all the next day, too and at the vet. I talked to her, petted her, kissed her head. So the last one she heard was my voice. and I was the one she could smell as I held her. That’s a comfort to me. I had another crying jag this afternoon. It hits me when I least expect it.
I’m gonna try & put up my tropical pics on the walls this weekend. I have some out but not all of it.
I’ll close for now.
Talk to ya later.
dd

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96212

Hi Ladies,
I’ve been trying to send you guys a pic of a kitty that came up on Instagram this morning. She’s a calico, 7 yrs old & is looking for a home without other cats, & is an indoor only cat. She looks nothing like Jewell but her bio resembles J. Maybe it’s too soon for me to think about getting another kitty, but I can’t stand the emptiness in my heart & apt without Jewell. It was a week ago today that part of my soul left me with her. I don’t know where people come up with names for their pets, but her name is Leeloo. I’d call her Lulu. Is it too soon to bring a new kitty here? I know friends are concerned for me right now, being all alone. I can’t talk about her without breaking down & dissolving into tears.
I got a chuckle from the frog. Growing up we had a frog under the house & we could hear him croaking. I think he was right my bedroom floor. I never did see him. We named him George. At least he can’t fly into your windows. To be honest I miss hearing the sounds of nature. All I hear are sirens, cars, motorcycles racing on the freeway. Once in awhile I hear birds, but not as much anymore.
I’m still turning on the heat in the AM. We’re in the 50s today. Downright chilly or cold!! I can’t believe some places are still getting SNOW this late!!
And those poor people whose homes were shredded to toothpicks!! So terrible.
Well, I can’t think of anymore to say. Have a great weekend!
dd

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96127

Hi Ladies,
I’m back. It’s been a very rough week for me!!! It started on Monday & got worse. The crematorium was supposed to call me about Jewell, but no call came. So I got the # from the vet & they confirmed that they were gonna call me. In the meantime I got on Google & looked up the place. I now wish I hadn’t done that. On the website it states they’ll cut off some of the fur so you can have it as remembrance. Also get a paw print & other things that I couldn’t afford. Well, Monday came & went, no call. So Tues. morning I call them & to my horror they had already cremated her on Monday!!! Without notifying me first. When he said that I screamed NOOOOOOOOOOOOO, Oh God, noooooooooooo!!!!!! It felt like someone shot me in the chest!!! When I confronted him about calling me he said he did call on May 18th, Sat., but no calls came in on Sat. I went back & checked all the calls & there was no calls for Sat.!!! Either, they dialed a one digit wrong or they’re covering up their mistake. I called back & told them I didn’t have a record of any phone calls for that day. All they could say is “We’re so sorry.” But there is a little light(?). They’ll transport her back to her vet. They put her in an urn so I have that.
I’m still looking for her to come around the corner from the bedroom, looking for food. Or looking for her on the bed. She’d sit there waiting for me to call her out here. I’d tell her “come on.” & I’d pat my thigh & that was our signals. Or I’d pat the bed or the sofa for her to come on up. Sometimes she’d come right away or she’d sit in front of me & come when she got good & ready!! Typical cat!!! I’m miss her soooooooooooo much!!! The place is soooooo empty!!
I called my Dr. Monday, to see if I could get in to see him, but he was leaving town so the advice nurse took my info. She said she’d get back to me but didn’t. Later on the pharmacy called me saying 2 scripts were ready for pickup.
Then today I got a call from the Dr. office from a psychologist, who my Dr. referred me to him. I have an appointment to see him tomorrow afternoon. He’s supposed to help me with coping with the grief. We’ll see what he has to say.

By the way, I;m SICK of turning on the heat myself. It’s been down right cold for this time of yr. We had that heatwave awhile back then went back to what felt like late winter. I’d already taken off my heavy blanket & packed it away. I remember before the construction here we had steam heat & it’d be turned off late April or early May. and they wouldn’t turn it back on till fall. But they’re saying we’re warming up & could see 80 on Sunday & upper 70s for Memorial Day. Kinda unusual, but we’ll take it. One yr we had such a bad weekend it almost snowed in the mts!!! I watched as the water swirled down the street cuz it was coming down so hard. There was debris in the street the next morning from the trees & the swirling water. So much for the beginning of summer, the unofficial start of summer.
Well, I’m all talked out. If you hear a LOUD scream or bellow, it’s just me when I go get the urn. Please keep me in your prayers. Thanks.
Have a great holiday weekend.
dd

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96019

Collen,
I couldn’t find that pic, but I know I have it somewhere. I’ll take another look & see if I can find it.
dd
PS: I need to follow my own advice.

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #96011

Hi Ladies,
It’s been a long day for me. I can’t muster up the energy to do much of anything today. I had a big crying jag earlier, not just tears, bellowing, almost
screaming. I used a towel to muffle it. I have a big hole in my chest right now.
thank you for all your kind words, support & above all your love. I’ll post pics of her, not all the time, but occasionally. I’ll try anyway.
I went over to Critt’s this afternoon & that helped a little. I sat & rattled off some of the things she’d do. Like if she got out in the hallway she’d head down to where Kay used to live. Both Critt, & Kay would take care of her when I got sprayed for bugs. Is funny I couldn’t think of why till just as I’m writing this. It had to be a reason we both couldn’t be in the apt. Memory’s going,lol.
I still haven’t rearranged the bedroom. Maybe tomorrow.

I’m sorry for anyone who has lost a beloved pet, or loved one! It’s so hard to accept they’re gone & never coming back. I don’t know how people cope with losing a child.
I can’t imagine it. I lost my mother in ’86 & it took me yrs to get to where I wasn’t grieving. It was actual physical pain for quite awhile. But I was 30 + yrs younger too.

Colleen, the skit you were thinking of Carol Burnett is wearing a green velvet dress with the curtain rods still in the curtains. Bob Mackie designed it.
I’ll post a pic from the show. It’s hilarious!
I better get off here, the computer is acting up
Have a great week.
dd

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #95991

Hi Ladies,
Yes I’m back. I want to thank all of you for your kind words of condolence at this time. I keep looking for her around the house. Expecting her to walk out to the living room, looking for her food dish, etc. I’ve been doing some housework & stuff to keep moving. I packed up the rest of her food & will give it to Hallie for her kitties. It’s just so hard right now. Diane & Hallie took pics of me holding her in her last moments yesterday. I’m glad they did cuz I couldn’t have. I lost a big part of my soul yesterday.

I’ve got to rearrange the bedroom somehow so that it doesn’t remind me every time I go in. Right now I look over to where she’d be curled up asleep next to my bed. I look at the bed for her little paw prints where she’d jump down to the floor. She’s alllllll over this apt.
I’ve been watching a marathon of Andy Griffith/Barney Fife so far today. I have a ballgame later tonight to watch. And I hope to find some Tim Conway shows to watch. Especially the Carol Burnett show skits. He was HYSTERICALLY FUNNY!! Harvey couldn’t keep a straight face ever!
It’s raining right now. we’ve been in the 60s the past few days. More normal than 80s or 90!!
Let me know if you want me to keep including pics of her. I guess I’ll go for now.
Take care
dd
PS: Thank you again for all the love, hugs, support & kindness you’ve shown me today. thank you so much.

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #95969

It appears one of the pics is upside down. Sorry. Take care all!!

[Dianne Danielson]

in reply to: Quacker talk-May 2019 #95961

Hi Ladies,
OH GOD, where do I begin? To start off, I’ll be signing off for awhile. No, no issues with any of you. I don’t know where to begin, but here it goes.
It is with the HEAVIEST of hearts that I do this post. I may not get thru this so don’t be surprized. I just got home from the vet, where I had to leave someone near & dear to my heart. It started yesterday(Thurs.) when I took her in to the vet. They gave her some fluids & a shot to ease nausea. When we got home she seemed ok. She went to her water & food dishes, which was normal. She ate later in the day & was okay. Around 8pm I heard a weird noise. I thought it was coming from the hall outside. As I got close to the bedroom, it was coming from there. I looked in & she wasn’t sight. I looked around the bed & she was having a seizure. I grabbed her up & held onto her. I was in full panic mode, as the vets office were closed by that time.
I got ahold of my friends & they took me to Dove Lewis, a 24 hr a day vet hospital. The Dr. there talked about hyperthyroidism, congestive heart failure, & cancer, and all the diagnostics that would need to be done. Never mind it’d be thousands of $!!!
She wanted me to euthanize her last night & I wasn’t about to!! I brought her home & she slept with me on my arm. Then at 3 am she had another seizure.
I got her calmed down after awhile. We went back to sleep, & made it thru the rest of the night. I called Diane & during our conversation she went into another seizure. I said to myself that’s it!! I called her regular vet & made the appointment to do the deed. It was the hardest decision I’ve had to make since 1991, when I had to put Fluffy to bed due to cancer. But I was more prepared for her as I was told she had a few months to live & she’d let me know when it was time. But this came on so suddenly I wasn’t prepared.
It’s gonna be a looooooooooong night tonight & an even longer weekend. No more kitty climbing all over me, no more kitty waking me up at the crack of dawn, No more kitty period!!
Before we left, I let her roam around the apt as a way for her to say goodbye. I noticed she went looking in places she normally didn’t. Looking for a dark place I think.
Well I better get off here.
You take all.
Love
dd & Jewell

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